scared
by Angel Perido
i’m scared that i’m turning into him
turning into that person that terrifies
angers me the most
turning into that person i can’t
help but love
care for because he did the same
every snap and shout
every trait and flaw
i want to be rid of them
but i can’t
it has been a part of me
but i’m still scared
he’s
capable of hurting people
i don’t want to hurt people
i don’t want to
i don’t
we are cautious around him
afraid he’ll just snap
shatter glasses and feelings
crush metals and minds
tear books and reason
open terror
then i saw
the same guard people has when he’s around
it’s up too when i’m around
it’s up too when i get angry
it’s up too when i lead
it’s up too when i speak
not that i don’t approve him
he’s
one of the greatest people i’ve
known
always be one
but I don’t want to be like him
i don’t want to
i can’t stand the way she looks at him
when he yells at her
when he has that face that says god
so stupid
when he asks her to shut the fuck up
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
when he yells at her
for
being
too
noisy
i can’t stand it
sometimes I just want to
curl down in my bed
and cry and scream and shout
to try and drown the noise
but here’s the best part
i
do
that
too
i shout at her too
god
i don’t care okay!
shut
it!
UHGGGG
WHATEVER!!
seriously!!!
oh
come on, even i figured that out!
wow,
really?
and i don’t want to anymore
she
works
yet we yell
how hard is that
probably too hard
too painful
and yet i can’t even do anything
i could shout enough!
when he tries to shout at her
i could defend her
but i don’t
because i’m a coward
because i’m turning into him
and
i swear to god, i don’t want to
i never didmay 27, 2014
