Mad World

by

i’ve always wanted to grow up
                                  have my own job
                                                       flat
tonight, i am not so sure
the world is cruel
                   mean

I had always been sure happiness
                                    satisfaction is easy to find
Tonight, I am not so sure
Where do I even begin?
What am I looking for?

I couldn’t go back
           Even If I wanted to
I couldn’t say goodbye
           There has been time for that
Now I am here
           Lying face down on a puddle of mud
Thinking, that maybe,
There really is heaven
To compensate for this hell
            We’re living in

 april 15, 2014